Lessons From the Sacred Inipi(16)
By Ghost Dancer
Talladega Prison, November 25, 2019 – We didn’t have any good wood for our sweat on Thursday; just busted up pieces of wooden pallets. We need real firewood to heat the rocks up hot enough. I believe things happen for a reason, so there was a reason it was not hot and I accept that. But I will also try to get the chaplain to get us real firewood and quit trying to penny pinch and not provide what we need.
We had a good ceremony anyway and I’m so thankful that we were able to. For the guys to all be there always makes a good ceremony and a good day. That is why I stay so happy. Every day is new, and I am a newborn child every day I wake up. What happened yesterday is gone and what matters is I have today to live. I can’t worry about tomorrow. Only Spirit knows if I have tomorrow to live, so many people stress about tomorrow or even months ahead. This is useless; it only causes the person to have mental and physical problems.
People always ask me, don’t you think about being free. I am free spiritually every day and every moment. My spirit and my mind, no one can imprison or take away from me. I see and hear how people are outside these walls and how they live. So many are in a prison they can’t get out of more than I have ever been. Trapped by all the illusions in their life; all their worries and doubts and fears. Me, I live one day at a time and I live it the best that I can.
I know many people consider me weird or even crazy. That is their prerogative. I’m different than others; well I believe we all should be different. Same as every flower, tree, plant, fish, animal, bird and all life is, just as our personalities are different. This is what makes life so interesting and so beautiful too. Some folks seem like vampires. They suck the energy and life out those around them with their negative force. This makes people feel the ugliness. Life is beautiful, we all are beautiful, if we chose to be. I don’t have to be young or handsome to be beautiful, I am what I feel and what is in me. A reflection of my spirit and my heart.
I can be overweight, I can be bald, or have scars on my body. Still I can be beautiful. This goes for every single person. Too many folks get caught up in what society says is beautiful. Looking a certain way does not make a thing or a person beautiful. It is the spirit and heart of anything or anyone that makes it that way. So this was the lesson of our sweat. Ghost